Thursday, April 24, 2014

Heed the Message ( On my Heart, a courageous woman)

http://lifeachangesorg.blogspot.com/2014/04/heed-message-faith-miraculous-gift.html was one of the seven blogs written in Holy Week, Passover and Easter asking for help with an Internet ministry, Heed the Message.com. run by Annie, a single semi homeless mother residing in a long extended hotel residence. After she suffered tremendous loss and set backs, she became homeless. In her desperation she could of  become selfish and thought only of herself, become bitter and turned away from God and humanity, but she did not, instead she turned towards the Almighty and his Son, and chosen to assist others in bad circumstances who were unfortunate to become homeless, ones whom lived paycheck to paycheck, became unemployed due to bankrupt companies, downsizing and even illness and were fired. Natural weather and other disasters also caused folks to be homeless.

As you realized the job market is suffering and the unemployment rates are very high in many states, not enough jobs for the people and families with degrees and skills. Manufacturing jobs that should stay in America are being sent overseas and employers are hiring foreign labor workers at lower wages. Our educational system is downgrading their standards of learning, and requiring less from students creating unproductive workers. Technology is advancing at a fast pace and employees have to keep ahead of their competition to keep their jobs, working longer hours, sacrificing quality time with their families, and dying younger, leaving single mothers to fend for their families.

The stressful existence of not knowing if you will have a job tomorrow, causes domestic violence and addictions to rise in dysfunctional families, leaving significant others no choice but to leave and they become homeless.  There is all sorts of discrimination going on, from educational, to credit scores and back ground searches and such, that many applicants seeking jobs, are turned away before they can prove their worth to an employer.

Then again, yes there are the mentally, physically handicapped and disabled, and the chronic junkies, yet there the homeless veterans who sacrificed their lives for our liberty and freedom. The elderly on fixed incomes and the ill who lost everything due to medical bankruptcy. These folks are trapped in the vicious cycle of bureaucracy and social agencies with waiting lists longer then our arms, some two years or more, waiting for Section 8 vouchers. The ones assigned to homeless shelters are being placed in dangerous environments, watch the documentary link below to understand why someone would rather sleep outdoors . Not to mention, the families who chose to sleep in their cars and the perils they face everyday.

Victims sitting as lame ducks to be prey upon, by evil psychopaths criminals and perverts. Innocents children become targets of these soulless monsters. Can you ever imagine the terror all those good folks experienced as they live day  by day, cold, hot, hungry, filthy and jobless, or have no financial resources or support systems to help them get out of the terrifying abyss.

We as a society have became cold hearted and distant from caring for others. Thinking someone eles will take care of  these unlucky, useless and unwanted people, as society calls.  These folks could be a family member or a loved one, and yet you all fear to contribute to a charity because you do not know where your donations are going, some of yous have been burnt and heard rumours and truths about the money being abused  by charities, afraid to open the purse strings, then go to the local dollar store and purchased the items yourselves listed in Annie's documentary and mail them to her or even to send a gift certificate could help. Her ministry accepts PayPal donations too.

I feel in my heart and by others testimonials on her website Annie of Heed the Message.com is not ones of these schemers. She is a Child of God, a warrior and cares for the homeless and is working on starting a homeless ministry. She even started to film a documentary about the homeless, watch the link below and preview the truth for yourselves. So please reconsider where your limited disposable income if going and use it instead to help a courageous woman with a mission, share the love and help a human being once again rise from their struggles and give them hope, make someone day and become a contributor to a worthy ministry.


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Sunday, April 20, 2014

Heed the Message (Faith a miraculous gift)

Blog 7 April 20, 2014 Heed the Message (Faith a miraculous gift)

Interesting reading, as heed the message is on my mind, and I sit here thinking how to write blog seven. Do I be cynical, or grateful, and have faith in humanity that they respond to Annie's heedthemessage.com desires to complete her mission, help the homeless. It is what I would do if I did not have responsibilities to others and progressive ms. Travel around the world and help others out of their crises. At least I could do is create a fund me.com site and direct you to a ministry that is committed and pray there are generous compassionate loving contributors still out there in Internet land, and if one or more gathered in his name to help then I am and you are still able to help another and honor the Son on this praiseful Day, and donate to Annie's ministry. Happy Easter, and blessings.

Strange how tarot cards hit the mark on some days, this is what I was thinking before click on cards, the yin and yang of life, the light and the dark, the positive and the negative, all energies and divine signs in the spiritual realm, if one believes in the truth. Do you believe and want to help, please read and decide if heedthemessage is calling you, to be an internet apostle. 


Yes.: You have been generous and kind and have graciously given to those in need. Now you will see the universal law of prosperity in effect. Money will come to you in miraculous ways. However, true to your kind heart, once again, you will share with the needy. Expect to focus on people with housing challenges.
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In times of desperation when we are in trouble we need a lifeline to hold on through the vicious storms that may visit our lives and affect us and our loved ones. Society states one can not live without love, loving self or another, to give and have return love from another. I as a believer believe one can not live without faith. Faith is like the oxygen we breath, you can not see it, you can not touch it, you can not smell it, yet you can hear the wisp of air going in and out of your lungs, the exchange of co2 departing from your body and oxygen from the trees come into your vessel with each exhale and inhale of breath.  You can  lay your head on your significant other's chest and hear their wondrous heartbeat one beat at a time. A baby is a fetus before it is born and the first sound they hear is the mother's heartbeat, for nine months. All this exchange is unseen yet it is a viable living element in our DNA that maintains our   

ho·me·o·sta·sis

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noun
1.
the tendency of a system, especially the physiological system of higher animals, to maintain internalstability, owing to the coordinated response of its parts to any situation or stimulus that would tendto disturb its normal condition or function.
2.
Psychology a state of psychological equilibrium obtained when tension or a drive has been reducedor eliminated.
3.
Entomology the ability of members of a colony of social insects to behave cooperatively to produce a desired result, as when bees coordinate the fanning of their wings to cool the hive.
So if this is possible, and it is our lifeline to living each day, then why can not faith be a lifeline to our existence. It is a reassurance no matter how difficult or dark a situation becomes, faith and belief in a higher being will balance our yin and yang, our light and dark and our positive and negative outcomes.  I and many others praised the Almighty's and his Son on this glorious day, and the beginning of Spring, faith is the seed that keeps on giving, and humanity are the vessels to continue this unseen lifeline to keep existing. 


Will you the readers who stop by and read this last blog seven of the Holy Week enriched a warrior like Annie, of heedthemessage.com and a half broken disabled woman with progressive multiple sclerosis typing from a keyboard, instead of being out in the field and doing the grunt work as I so much desired to do, help homeless people know they are not forget, and are loved as Jesus would on his path.  Blessings my Children

Encouraging Bible Verses About Faith - What did Jesus say about Faith?
Matthew 17:20
And He said to them, "Because of the littleness of your faith; for truly I say to you, if you have faith as a mustard seed, you shall say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there,' and it shall move; and nothing shall be impossible to you.
Matthew 21:21
And Jesus answered and said to them, "Truly I say to you, if you have faith, and do not doubt, you shall not only do what was done to the fig tree, but even if you say to this mountain, 'Be taken up and cast into the sea,' it shall happen.
Mark 10:52
And Jesus said to him, "Go your way; your faith has made you well." And immediately he regained his sight and began following Him on the road.
Encouraging Bible Verses on Faith- What Scriptures say Faith is
Hebrews 11:1
Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen.
1 Peter 1:21
who through Him are believers in God, who raised Him from the dead and gave Him glory, so that your faith and hope are in God.
Encouraging Bible Verses on Faith- Faith demonstrated by Action
1 Thessalonians 1:3
constantly bearing in mind your work of faith and labor of love and steadfastness of hope in our Lord Jesus Christ in the presence of our God and Father,
Encouraging Bible Verses on Faith- Share Your Faith with Others
Philemon 1:6- NIV
I pray that you may be active in sharing your faith, so that you have a full understanding of every good thing we have in Christ.
Encouraging Bible Verses on Faith- Scriptures About Teaching Others in Faith
1 Thessalonians 3:2
and we sent Timothy, our brother and God's fellow worker in the gospel of Christ, to strengthen and encourage you as to your faith,
Encouraging Bible Verses on Faith- Scriptures about Faith in eternal life
Colossians 1:5
because of the hope laid up for you in heaven, of which you previously heard in the word of truth, the gospel,
1 Peter 1:5
who are protected by the power of God through faith for a salvation ready to be revealed in the last time.
Scriptures about faith teach us to hold our Faith in Jesus Christ in hope for eternal life. The scriptures also tell us to put our Faith in action and to share faith with others. I pray these Bible verses on faith found you at a time you needed them. Please add any other of your favorite Bible verses on faith in the comments. Thanks for reading.
Other resources are available on faith at: What Christians Want To Know
Resources
New American Standard Bible

Please donate and help someone today to escape the darkness. Preview the website, donate there or the Gofundme.com site

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By saying this prayer below out loud and mean it within your heart – you have invited Jesus into your life and heart!

SalvationPrayer

Dear Heavenly Father,
I come to you in the name and through the blood of Jesus.  I acknowledge to you to that I am a sinner, and I am truly sorry for my sins.  I desire and need your forgiveness.
I believe that your only begotten Son Jesus Christ shed His precious blood on the cross at Calvary and died for my sins, and I am now willing to turn from my sin.
You said in Your Holy Word, Romans 10:9 that if we confess with our mouths that Jesus Christ is Lord and believe in our hearts that God raised Jesus from the dead, we shall be saved.
Right now I confess Jesus as the Lord of my soul and life. With my heart, I believe that God raised Jesus from the dead. This very moment I accept Jesus Christ as my own personal Savior and according to His Word, right now I am saved.
Thank you Jesus for your unlimited grace which has saved me from my sins. I thank you Jesus that your grace leads to repentance. Therefore Lord Jesus transform my life so that I may bring glory and honor to you alone and not to myself.
Thank you Jesus for dying for me and giving me eternal life.
In Jesus Name I pray…
Amen!
Congratulations!  Your name has now been written in the Book of Life!  What a glorious day.  Did you know that every time a person asks Jesus to come into their life and hearts and gets saved, the angels rejoice?  Oh how Heaven is singing today!  What a beautiful sound!
If you would like prayer or Godly counsel on this important step you have taken, you may contact me and I will gladly pray with you.



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Saturday, April 19, 2014

Heed the Message (What Would Jesus Do?)




This is blog Six, Saturday April 19, 2014 What Would Jesus Do?

Where do I begin, with the twilight dream I had this morning. The thought that Jesus Christ descent to Hell before ascending to Heaven to sit at the right side of his Father after his death. On the third day he rosed again and we praise his rising, on Easter Sunday.

Today is Saturday, the second day when Jesus died and his body was wrapped and entombed in a stone wall cave, was coming back to life. On that second day did Jesus met Satan and desired to rescue his wayward children's souls that Satan manipulative and stolen away with temptations. How many souls were saved that day one ponders.

Back to twilight dream, it was strange and I awoken feeling refreshing alive yet truth visited me, a realization as I try to help others, establish relationships, something interferes and the relationship is broken. So many times in my life I been thrown away like one day old garbage, told I was an user, liar, manipulative, unwanted, unloved, etc I use to it now. I do not hear those remarks anymore. I hear a gentle fatherly voice, telling me, I am a Child of God, a very good person who deserves good things in this lifetime.

I wondered if my dream was an awakening, a glimpse of a smaller comparison and emotional insight of how Jesus felt when everyone of the earthly realm abandoned him at the last hour and the anguish he experienced because he was different and beat his own drums, live his life according to his Father's laws and was a stranger on Earth.

Everyone accepted him until he challenged and threatened their egos, made them faced their transgressions. He was a leader and  charismatic man who was able with gentle persuasive ways convince people to join and follow him to the ends of earth at that time. Compassionate, caring, generous and willing to give up his life for the masses. My dream made me realized that individuals who are willing to be as Jesus taught, a person who thought of others before themselves, was a difficult path to walk.

It is too late for humanity, did we lose the moral compass, are we the opposite of the Almighty and his son, I pray not. Did Satan win and collecting souls today because we have become blind, deaf and mute to see, hear or speak of  Jesus's  victories of teaching humanity about divine love. I am not advocating new age or gurus views, I do not want to fall into the trap of darkness. I do not want be cut off from the Savior, he has not thrown me and others away, he is there waiting for you to call upon him. To believe, to repent and to declare the Salvation prayer with all of our hearts.

To be preventative and safe, One thinks of worst case scenario, get through the crisis with strength and faith depending upon selves and a kind understanding compassionate entity seen, human or unseen guiding force supernatural to get through the storm. Jesus Christ was able to depend upon his Father for support and strength. Reassurance he was loved and protected and never abandoned by his Father. A family that loved one another.

Now it is in heaven as on earth is in the prayer of Our Father who art in Heaven, I understand why the Father is mourning his Earth children. One has to ask when did they did an  act of kindness  for a stranger, a homeless mother, father, their children, veterans, unemployed and so many more unfortunate people who lost everything. Without expecting anything back in return. It appears to be a rare action among today's masses.

Here is a great opportunity to donate to a worthy cause, a ministry that is willing to do the grunt work and go out on the streets, back alleys and hid outs where the homeless resided. I bet you do not know or care to find out where they lived. In my neighborhood they lived in the woods behind the big supermarkets, in the woods by the railroad tracks and other places. Who do they have to depend upon? It is not their fault they are homeless, something went wrong in their lives and now they are abandoned and alone.

I truly understand if I walked Jesus's path in the Holy week, what he must of felt. As I write this a pang of heartache sears me to experience one tenth of what he must have experienced when humanity turned away their eyes, ears and became mute to his teachings. Is it too late, I pray not. Please I ask again and again donate to Annie's ministry Heed the Message or the gofundme.com account and help someone escape the darkness and start their climb back to hope and productivity once again.

As for me, I volunteer at a homeless shelter and I was a homeless counselor for ten years and I cry for the unfortunate people caught in the trap of homelessness. Funds are being cut as I write this, workers laid off and more people are in need of assistance, will you do as Jesus would do?  give and share love, through donations, actions or even employment for Annie, so she can continue with her mission. Thank you, Blessing my Children.

Please donate and help someone today to escape the darkness. Preview the website, donate there or the Gofundme.com site

THANK YOU SO MUCH AND GOD BLESS YOU!!  This link is incredible!  http://www.gofundme.com/8c2t4g  Thank you!!

By saying this prayer below out loud and mean it within your heart – you have invited Jesus into your life and heart!

SalvationPrayer

Dear Heavenly Father,
I come to you in the name and through the blood of Jesus.  I acknowledge to you to that I am a sinner, and I am truly sorry for my sins.  I desire and need your forgiveness.
I believe that your only begotten Son Jesus Christ shed His precious blood on the cross at Calvary and died for my sins, and I am now willing to turn from my sin.
You said in Your Holy Word, Romans 10:9 that if we confess with our mouths that Jesus Christ is Lord and believe in our hearts that God raised Jesus from the dead, we shall be saved.
Right now I confess Jesus as the Lord of my soul and life. With my heart, I believe that God raised Jesus from the dead. This very moment I accept Jesus Christ as my own personal Savior and according to His Word, right now I am saved.
Thank you Jesus for your unlimited grace which has saved me from my sins. I thank you Jesus that your grace leads to repentance. Therefore Lord Jesus transform my life so that I may bring glory and honor to you alone and not to myself.
Thank you Jesus for dying for me and giving me eternal life.
In Jesus Name I pray…
Amen!
Congratulations!  Your name has now been written in the Book of Life!  What a glorious day.  Did you know that every time a person asks Jesus to come into their life and hearts and gets saved, the angels rejoice?  Oh how Heaven is singing today!  What a beautiful sound!
If you would like prayer or Godly counsel on this important step you have taken, you may contact me and I will gladly pray with you.



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Thursday, April 17, 2014

Heed the Messages email and call for help Blog 4

As I am restless with the condition of the world today, I desired to find people who still believe in compassion and helping their fellow human  beings. Annie seems to be one of those, beats her own drum and follows her heart where ever it leads her. Crazy or a true believer, she walks the path that Jesus Christ alleges to have done. We need more caring compassionate and gentle people like her in the world fighting the darkness. She is full of wisdom and writes like a poet with a hint of truth, lessons and a calling to awakened the masses before it is too late, be it the coming of the Almighty or the self destruction of the human race.

I will enclosed her two previous emails, beginning with today's as it touched my heart and cries that someone, a church, sponsor, an employer, a good heart person sees this and helps her. In this season of resurrection, will you seek your divine spark and help someone today? thank you



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12:08 PM (6 minutes ago)
to me
Hi Cat,

Love that name :))

I first want to say thank you for all you are doing.  It is so kind of you and no one has ever gone to bat for me or this ministry before.  Forgive me, it is very new for me to experience this.  

The couple can't give away the car.  The husband wishes he could but they have medical bills just like most people.  I wouldn't accept it either without paying something toward it anyway.  That is way too kind!   

I recall the days though when people did do that.  What was theirs was yours when anyone was in a bad spot. The world has changed much in my 51 years.  It is very sad to witness the things I do.  But, the Word of God says in the last days peoples hearts will wax cold. At times I try to imagine what the world would be like if we all joined as one to help our fellow neighbor.  We surely would not have empty foreclosed homes.  Nor human beings living like animals on the street.  It is sad to see families so separated too.  One falls on a hard time and people can't even rely on their own families anymore.  The meaning of self sacrifice has been taken out of this way of life.  So many are wrapped up in their own little worlds, they do not see the hardships others face.  

When I was driving, I would pay attention to much.  People walking by an old lady struggling to get into the market and not giving her a helping hand.  Heck, most of the time no one would hold the door open for her.  I would run up to her and say Mam can I help you?  Oh how the eyes would light up with joy and a big smile.  If people would just stop for 2 minutes and look around them.  They would be shocked to see what they pass by...

This is why I know that the messages the Lord has given me with regard to judgment coming to America will unfold.  Notice how when there is a horrific event, all gather to assist?  Recall 911 for example.  The world changed for just a bit.  We all looked at life differently.  People were kinder to one another, just for a bit.  Amazing that it takes the shock syndrome to wake people up to be united.  But as with every tragedy, it passes and things go back to what they were.  Self absorption.  So God will bring the judgments to 'shock' the people, but in a much bigger manner.  It is time America gets back to the basics.  Loving one another.  

Tomorrow I am heading out to Chicago taking 3 trains and a bus.  I NEED to begin this.  It aches my heart at all I have researched thus far.  If I have to just take as much as I can carry with my camera to do the witnessing and interviews for the next month, I will do it.  I am literally choked up inside knowing how badly these people are living.  Did you know the number one requests homeless people have?  Socks.  Because their shoes are so worn out and if they are not wearing socks, their feet get blisters and infections.  Or they get boot rot is what I read.  They are grateful for socks, can you believe it?   Huh majority of people if they can't find the "missing sock" they just throw it away.  Honestly, so many do not know how good they have it.  

All I see today is people's noses glued to their smart phones.  Walking, standing, driving.  All wrapped up in a hand held device.  Heck most people won't buy a new car unless it has bluetooth in the car so they can continue to "talk" as they drive.  It is sad, isn't it?

I am praying for you S for your health.  I am not calling it out by name for I am not going to identify it.  I only identity healing in a persons life.  Amen!  So yes, I am praying for a complete healing in your life.  As in the Lords prayer - On earth as it is in Heaven.  There is no sickness in Heaven.  Our Lord and Savior bore all on His body for us.  Not just our sins, but all.  We must walk in that victory also.  

I have "things" too but refuse to acknowledge them.  I continue to speak life.  :))

Anything I write you, yes you can use in your blogs.  I think that is what you meant a couple of emails ago?  As far as the interview I would love that!  I don't know what I will be discussing though with a presidential candidate?  The condition of this world?  Phew I can talk for hours on that subject!  :))   I would be honored though!  Where ever the Lord takes me.  

Again, thank you SO much for all you are doing.  I am so grateful, you have no idea!  

Okay gotta get ready for the PACE bus.  I need to pick up a few things at the dollar store for tomorrow's journey.  

God bless you!


previous email


Hi S,

Thank you so much for doing this for me!  I am in tears...  What is more unbelievably awesome is the amount you put forth.  I was just alerted of the following:

I have one of my son's friends parents that are willing to sell me their 2007 Honda Accord that has only 58,600 miles on it and are willing to sell it to me for $5000.  It was the lady's Mom's car and she hardly drove it anywhere.  I looked it up on the Kelly blue book and am shocked they were willing to sell this to me at such a cheap price, so I called them.  I spoke to the husband and he heard my story through his son and wanted to help.  He said he would love to give it away for free but they are encountering medical bills and can't.  But are willing to do that low price.  So I ask you to PLEASE pray that God will supply/provide the means to obtain this vehicle.  I took a look at it and it is perfect.  Took my daughters friend who is a mechanic and he stated it's in impeccable condition. And Honda's last forever!  I am praying so hard.  I believe GOD brought this across my path to really heighten my faith and to pray.  

You and one other person I have told about this cause I just found out.  I will not do a video about it cause I know how people are when it comes to situations like this.  Susanna, you know they pay Pastors million dollars a year to run a church, some have million or multi million dollar homes, jets, you name it.  Here I am a simple woman just wanting to make a hard hitting difference in the needs of human life on the streets.  I am all prepared.  I have the care packages all put together.  I have studied and researched everything possible of how to even teach women who are homeless on the streets - to be safe.  I know that I know, GOD is leading me further once this documentary is done.  It's like the first step.  My heart and passion has always been for the homeless, for the poor.  I pray I come across with that passion in the YouTube videos.

One of the hotel workers here at where I stay said to me today as I was coming back in from looking at the car... said how's it going?  I told her.  She said you know it's amazing to see a semi homeless woman on fire to go out and help those that are totally homeless.  She said I can see this hitting the news!  LOL  She said it's the perfect story.

As I sat here praying to God about the car and everything the young woman's words came up in my spirit.  It would be the perfect story!  I have heard of testimonies similar, but nothing like this.  I laughed and said to the LORD wouldn't that be something and I got such a peace and assurance in my spirit like that is where it's heading.  

THANK YOU SO MUCH AND GOD BLESS YOU!!  This link is incredible!  http://www.gofundme.com/8c2t4g  Thank you!!



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Heed the Message, (spiritual cleaning) Blog 3

Heed the message spiritual cleansing Blog 3 April 17th, 2014



    This picture was created for a tender anthology Angels Cried    for the Boston Marathon survivors by me for the Indies in Action when the  tragedy occurred last year.

               A wonderful Indie authors and artist community
                                     
  I am not advertising, I selected this photo  to show you when  you find the divine spark, also find wonderful compassionate people who crossed your path every day.
  Such as all the warriors out there who care.


Blog 3. 


Today is Thursday of Holy Week, I lay here pondering what to write about to touch other peoples' hearts and souls to desire to help me assist Annie to raise funds to purchase a car, or locate an employer willing to give her a job to earn the money.

Do I write about a dark secret and bring it out into the light to ask for forgiveness for myself when I committed the transgression and released the guilt to the Almighty and his son Jesus Christ. As quoted in the Holy Bible you go to the person say your grievance and ask for forgiveness. If the party does not accept, you go and seek witnesses and once again ask for forgiveness, I am paraphrasing here, will include verse.  

Matthew 18:15-17 ESV / 

“If your brother sins against you, go and tell him his fault, between you and him alone. If he listens to you, you have gained your brother. But if he does not listen, take one or two others along with you, that every charge may be established by the evidence of two or three witnesses. If he refuses to listen to them, tell it to the church. And if he refuses to listen even to the church, let him be to you as a Gentile and a tax collector.


My life has been a roller coaster ride mostly on the dark side starting in my youth. I was the caretaker of my unbalanced parents since my adopted brother left home. I grow up without a childhood, given responsibilities at a tender age. Raised Catholic and planned to keep my virginity until marriage.

But a dark hair lonely abused wounded man came across my path and his sad eyes just blown me away. He was sweet talker, one date to the next, navy enlistment round the corner, ladies you know temptation was knocking on my door and I gave into it. Now unwed and could not go home to daddy, had to get married. 

Definitely not ready, the sweet guy after the ring was put on became a snake in the grass. Thus 15 long years on and off abuse, and two lose babies and three healthy children. I became lost and angry with God and Jesus. Crying out why? Dived into alcoholism and abusing prescription drugs as my escape. Affairs to make him stay away, nothing work, he was in the wings waiting. (Girls please learn the red flags of abuse, meet the family, and tested him before getting attached.)

I wondered where were the angels be it human or spiritual where to open my eyes and whisper do not take this path, you know what was ironic I did hear a whisper years ago not to marry this man, but his broken eyes claimed my heart. After many trails, evictions, homeless, and starting over we separated but he needed a caretaker and we came back together, the violence stopped. I was diagnosed with progressive ms and now he was the caretaker. 

His dad did not approve of our relationship and my choices. He invited his son, I was three month pregnant and should of not gone on a canoe trip early in our marriage. So gullible he asked and I went. The true colors of the dysfunctional family came through on that trip. Boozing and violence. His father did not respect women, I pregnant, thirsty and no water to drink, suffered. 

Was physically and verbally attack by him and his son, words that still trapped me too this day, 28 years later. A rocky relationship, he try to make amends years later, he lost his second to oldest child a son, I felt for him, yet my heart was hardened. As I lost my father to a drunk driver earlier, I was drowning in self pity and rage, could not hear my inner voice to hold on and have faith.

Peace and tolerance reign for awhile between me and the in-laws, but evil reared his head, my wounded pride came out as I lost the baby on that trip and could not easy forgive him or his son, that bitterness ate through my soul and affect my health. His father was trying to bribe us with a new home, and I did not, could not let go of the fury I felt as I felt my second child dying inside in, in a flashback and I reacted impulsively years later by sending a hateful email to him. I was not setting myself up to live in the boon docks, away from civilization with an abuser. Did not accept his terms, he was furious.

In the midst of a bitter crisis I went ballistic and pour out my anger to him in that email, under influence of alcohol, wished I kept that email, oh well. Of course, he retaliated and decided it was time to finally closed the door to his son and daughter in law. Who could blame him. I write this for I have and he has trespassed against me and each other, yet Jesus asks we forgive our enemies. Many wounds between us, deny the children for many years, gave false promises and broken them, yet did help financially at times. Complex relationship.


I wonder did God and Jesus direct my life on this path of difficulties to make me a stronger person, to experience heartache, temptations and recover from them so I could hold someone's hand and relate as they too described their darkest secrets. Became a homeless counselor for ten years and helped many people to live independently in their Section 8 housing. Best job or career I ever had.


As of today I do not have any regrets, no tears, for a spiritual force, real or imaginary is showing me the truth and preparing me to be a messenger and assist the lost. 

Today message help Annie of heed the message gain her peace, to continue on her path, helping others, and do not be afraid to come out of the darkness in front of witnesses. It can be very cleansing to the mind, heart and spirit. Blessings my Children. 



Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Heed the Message, second blog (spiritual awakening and spiritual calling)

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Helping another is what life is about,
are you ready to join hearts, souls and hands
reach across the divide and
donate to a worthy charity and ministry.
Helping the homeless, is accepting the Good Lord's laws.
                                                                                Matthew 25:35
For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in,


Blog 2, Heed the Message, April 16, 2014

What does a person who has not been raised with proper etiquette social skills and known boundaries do when they hurt another? Obviously I need to explore this query?  In dysfunctional families, this seems to be a normal occurrence with relationships. It seems every time a relationship is established between one and another person, be it family, loved one or friend, it lasts a brief moment in time and then it falls apart. 

When one tries to understand and questioned the other party to explain or express their feelings or hurt pride, they become defensive and used defense mechanism skills to protect themselves. One has to ponder if it is immature or a tactic to closed the door on the broken relationship.

The signs of damage is the person stops calling, texting and makes excuses why they can not visit anymore. Sometimes they  just disappear as a storm passing through, silent with no explanations or goodbyes. 

You do everything you can considering the circumstances, to repair the broken bond but that party is not able to let go of the wound, and moves  on, leaving no closure. This method is very painful, the silence is heart breaking and the void hurts. One day you are laughing, the next crying wondering what went wrong.

I write this short note to let you know that do not blame yourself for the other person's decision to vacate your life. There is a season for everything, they came as the wind, left a loud or quiet storm, left behind a vital lesson, now it is your job to discover what it was. 

I have accepted the truth of he abuse we experienced in our childhood carries into adulthood, and we have to forgive the trespassers who trudged upon our boundaries and violated us, be it physical, emotionally or psychological, otherwise one will be trapped in the past, losing the spark of the present  moment. Become a prisoner of our past actions or of a bully, as who have forgotten the wound they have caused and vice averse you have done upon them and moved on.

I have accepted one has to stop thinking negative thoughts, stop blaming self and others for trespasses against you and me, and the ones you trespassed against, apologized and move on. Life teaches us as experiences, good or bad, they will make you or break you. If they break you, remember you can bounced back, better and stronger then before. As all experiences are learning lessons to advanced in one's spiritual awareness. I as I hope others read this enlightening blog realized that life is precious and God loves us all and you are never alone.

He wants us to live enriching lives while we resided here for a brief visit. My past has many dark secrets and lately every day it seems as if He or the angels are showing me signs of one door closes, another one opens. We are given freewill to groan or jump for joy. Today I raised my hands in praise and asked the Almighty to awakened your dominant hearts to seek him and desire to help others. 

This blog this week is dedicated to a worthy warrior, Annie of heed the message. My mission is to alert good hearted people that this ministry head by her is in need of assistance, will post two links for you to discover a true apostle on a mission for the good Lord and his son.  Will you click and donate to a worthy cause especially in this Holy season. Thank you and blessings my children.

These two links are Annie's ministry and the Gofundme.com I started it to assist her with her mission, be it donations, services, suggestions or leads to employment. May the divine spark come into your heart. thank you.